Freakin' Thorn

I am really trying to digest the verses in 2 Corinthians 12:7-10

To keep me from becoming conceited because of these surpassingly great revelations, there was given me a thorn in my flesh, a messenger of Satan, to torment me. Three times I pleaded with the Lord to take it away from me. But he said to me, "My grace is sufficient for you, for my power is made perfect in weakness." Therefore I will boast all the more gladly about my weaknesses, so that Christ's power may rest on me. That is why, for Christ's sake, I delight in weaknesses, in insults, in hardships, in persecutions, in difficulties. For when I am weak, then I am strong. (NIV)

I love Paul's honesty. He knew he had a tendency to be egocentric and braggadocios. I don't even blame him for asking God to take away the thorn. I would have done the same exact thing.

In fact, over the past five years I have asked God to take away my infertility problems. I've begged God to open up my left closed fallopian tube, and enable me to carry my baby full-term instead of having an ectopic pregnancy. Prayer after prayer I have poured out my desire to be a mother in hope that God will decide to perform a miracle. I have one good tube and it seems I should have gotten pregnant via that one but no luck.

There are so many factors beyond my control that I've relied on prayer. Unfortunately, my prayers weren't answered in the way I wanted them to be. I didn't get a little pudgy baby to hold and love. I was blessed with being pregnant three times which was a cool experience, but my pregnancies never lasted past 10 weeks. At least I got to experience a little bit of the mommy thing.

Even though I've suffered many years of heartbreak, grief and depression, God has poured his gift of grace over my head healing me bit by bit. It's been a long process and I'm still journeying along, but I haven't lost my faith. I can positively state that God's grace has totally been sufficient for me. God definitely came through for me when it comes to blessing me with phenomenal people all around me to encourage me, make me laugh and give me a shoulder when I needed to cry. For all that I'm thankful. I am blessed. May you be blessed too!