How many eggs do I have?

I recently received a free consultation with a highly respected fertility specialist, so my hubby and I went and talked with her. She suggested I get pricked, so I did....

Dr. A called this week and left a message. She has my blood results back and asked me to call her. The test was a blood draw to see how many eggs I have left. It was news to me that a simple blood test would tell you that kind of information. The only test I previously had done was the day 3 FSH test and I tested normal. Yippee!

My doctor called the new test an ovarian reserve test (ORT) which is performed to determine what's in your Easter egg basket. Dr. A wanted to do this test so she would know how aggressive she needs to be with my treatment ("if" I decide to do "treatment").

You can either have normal or poor test results. Neither confirms or guarantees that you'll be able to get pregnant. It's just another test, another way to measure the likelihood of your egg quantity. The test can't tell you the "quality" of your eggs. A low or poor ovarian reserve means you have slim chances of becoming pregnant.

I’m interested in knowing how many ovaries I have but hesitant to call her back. I’ve waited 2 days and haven’t returned her call. I dread calling her. Sure I want to “know” but that means I may be faced with making YET another decision: do I stick with my current resolution to not do IVF again…or should I give it one more shot (pun not intended).

I don’t fear the needles and endless doctor visits. The thing that stops me dead in my tracks is the emotional roller coaster of it all. If I allow myself to imagine having a little “Jack” or “Jill” then I get my hopes up. If it doesn’t happen then I know I’ll fall into a big black hole of depression. That’s not a good place to be. Been there. Done that.

Gotta make the call today.